I am not sure anyone reads my blog anymore. I mean, my posting has been sporadic at best for nearly 2 years. And it seems that overall, blogging is become a bit passe – as we turn to Facebook, Instagram, and Snap Chat as ways to connect via social media.
But reading over the old posts that show up in my TimeHop, I realize that I miss writing…the filling of blank page with my thoughts, my feelings, my words.
Truthfully, I think the need to blog goes deeper for me. I am trying to connect back to the woman I was before my 2nd daughter – before pregnancy left me on modified bed rest for weeks, before complications limited the physical activity I could do, before a 2nd c-section, before I gave nearly 14 months of my life to nurse her, before work and family obligations climbed higher and higher.
Now, don’t get me wrong – I LOVE the life I am living right now. My relationship with my husband has never been stronger, my daughters bring so much joy to my life, my work is challenging and fulfilling, and my faith has deepened.
And yet, I feel as though something is missing. I miss the woman who went for a run on Saturday morning, who meal planned and packed healthy lunches, who had moved past an eating disorder, then disordered eating to find a happy and healthy weight.
I want to move back towards those things again. And so I am making some changes – slow, steady, changes. And I plan to document them here – whether anyone reads them or not. Perhaps, decades from now my daughters’ will face their own struggles – of trying to rediscover themselves and build the life that they want….and feeling nearly hopeless they will turn to my blog, to my words, and will be inspired to keep trying.
Your turn: What’s happening with you these days?